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Today is Big J’s 5th birthday, but we celebrated last Friday before grandma left town. We finally took the family to the new splash pad in town and then showed the boys what the drive-in movies are like with a double feature of the new Planes movie and Maleficent. Big J requested a Lego cake. We ended up opting for cupcakes and snacks at the movies. All Lego-themed, of course. Take a peeksy…
Dear Big J,
Five years ago today, my whole world changed. After an anxious night and 8.5 hours of labor, I became a mom for the first time. I remember holding you for the first time and how overwhelmed I was. I don’t know if I was overwhelmed with love, responsibility or a combination of the two. I remember how tears slid down your daddy’s cheeks and I could see how much he loved you. We both loved you before we met you, but holding you for the first time was something I can’t describe. It was amazing. You are the spitting image of your daddy, but I can see so much of me in you too. From the way you sleep with your arms over your head, your lack of coordination (sorry, Buddy) to your little sassy mouth that can get you in trouble, there’s a little bit of me in there.
I have loved watching you grow up a little more every day. You are so quick to learn new things and your curiosity can be infuriating, because I don’t know everything and you are always full of “why?”s. Your sense of humor has been apparent since you were tiny and I’m so glad you can try to see the good in any situation. Not everyone knows how to find a reason to laugh, even in despair. Always find a reason to be happy.
I can’t wait for you to go to school this year. I hope you satisfy a little of that curiosity, make new friends and get to explore more of this big world. I’ll admit I’m a little anxious that I can’t be there to guide you and help you. There is a lot of awesomeness in the world, but some times it’s a scary place too. I will try to let you learn and grow on your own, but you will always be my baby. I will always want to keep you safe. Kids can be mean. I hope you don’t buy into that. You’re awesome and don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. Be kind. Be a friend to everyone. I hope you will learn quickly that quality friends are so much better than quantity. And don’t forget to have fun. You’re a smart boy, but grades aren’t everything. Please don’t stress about perfection. You’re a lot like your daddy that way. Some times, good is good enough. You’ll make yourself (and me!) crazy if you always try to be perfect. Just do your best and work hard. That’s all I could ever want from you.
I love you, Buddy. Happy Birthday. Thanks for changing my life and teaching me what unconditional love really is. I’m so glad you came to our family. Momma is always here if you need me. I hope you will always know that and never not want to come to me (or at least, to Dad). I love you more… to the moon and back. Always and for always.